Embrace Change

I lost control of my weight. I kept thinking that I could handle it, that I could manage it all by myself. Then, I got on the scale and saw how much I weighed. The funny thing is that I always thought 450 lbs. would look different.

I hate how fat I am. I hate that I eat until I'm horribly uncomfortable. I hate that I have to scan a room when I first enter it to find a chair I can trust will hold me without breaking. I hate that I have to buy two plane tickets any time I want to go to South Carolina to see my family and friends. I hate that I find more value in my food than in myself.

I've done Physicians Weight Loss, Dexatrim, Metabolife, Phentermine, Low Carb, No Carb, The Zone, the all-juice plan, and everything in between. I've done it all, so why am I still fat? Well, because it's not just a food thing. It's a brain thing and an emotion thing. So, as the quote says, "If you want something you've never had, you must be willing to do something you've never done." That's where this blog comes in. I'm telling it like it is and letting you see the real me. It's scary, but it's also seriously liberating.

Tomorrow, my best friend and I are trying something else new - we're starting the Whole30 challenge. For 30 days, we will eat fruit, vegetables and meat. We will say "no" to sugar, legumes, grains, salt, dairy, breads, processed stuff and a whole host of other food that isn't allowed. Some things will be easy for me because I love, love, love all things green and carnivorous. I also know it will be challenging, but totally worth it.

So, the lesson here is this: if you're not getting the results you want, maybe you should trying do something you've never done.