Accountability

There is no one else to blame but me for how much weight I have gained in the past five or six years. Yes, there are contributing factors to my weight gain - grief, depression, and abundant insecurities to name a few - but I still made the choice to put the food in my mouth. I still chose to eat and comfort myself with food instead of deal with the things that bothered me. I still gained every pound one at a time, and that is the only way I am going to lose it - one at a time.

I'm fat. I know it. I feel it when I can't sit in an arm chair. I flame red when I have to buy two plane tickets and request a seatbelt extender. I might not look at myself in the mirror every day, but 300+ pounds of fat cannot be ignored. I know this beyond a shadow of a doubt because I've tried. And it doesn't just dissolve overnight. It's a fight - a fight to exercise, a fight for eating right and a fight for my life.

One of my favorite quotes I came across recently is "to achieve something you've never done, you must do something you've never done", or something like that. And it's true. Diets don't work if you're not really committed to them. It all starts in the head.

So, as you embark on your New Year's resolution and I continue on my journey to become the person I have never been, let's change our minds first so we can change our bodies forever. Remember, you lovely people out there, just focus on losing one pound at a time. One pound becomes ten becomes one hundred. Someday I will be the size that is right for me, and I challenge you to join me on this journey.